How We Got Through IVF…
I could speak on this season of life for days but I will do my best to keep it a blog post short. We started trying January of 2021 and from there we hit many up’s and downs. Fast forward to 2022, after some failed treatments, we realized that IVF was going to be the only way for us to get pregnant. I was not ready to go down that path and I didn’t want injections, countless appts, or procedures so we decided to wait a year.
My prayer after that moment was “Lord, keep us content with life until it is your time”. So we lived life enjoying every day, traveling, making memories, and truly just not putting any pressure on having kids until we felt that nudge from God that it was time. And God kept us so content that the sadness I felt went away and that ache for a child kind of went dormant? It’s hard to explain but God did that. Yes there were moments where I’m like okay God here’s another friend pregnant or my sister with twins (like couldn’t you just give me one of those? Haha). But in those moments I would pray for peace, understanding, and trusting his timing.
Fast forward to 2024, it was March when one day I felt it in my heart that maybe we were ready? I remember telling my hubby “I think I’m ready for IVF”. I don’t know why but that readiness felt like something I never felt before. There was hope that I hadn’t felt in years. I called an old clinic in NYC and they couldn’t see us till June and that just didn’t felt right to me. I called a local place near us and they were able to get us in two weeks later. I remember praying with my hubby before walking into that appointment and praying that if it wasn’t our time, just to let us know Lord. But of course we left that appointment feeling so hopeful and excited. I would get scan done at my next cycle two weeks later and would begin meds at the end of May. I couldn’t believe it that this was happening.
From the first appointment with our new clinic to bloodwork and finance, God was in everything. Our finances were covered, PRAISE THE LORD. What we were once quoted a year ago (30k) was just going to cost us $3500????? Um excuse me God what is happening. There were so many ways that God showed us this was it for us. We had to wait a month and a half for a procedure and we got called that they had a cancellation that week and they could fit me in. We prayed for a transfer month because we were in between two months for personal reasons and God let us know what was the right time. It was all God.
We prayed over every appt. We prayed for the perfect amount of eggs and the perfect amount of embryos. There was prayer before every decision and we felt God in every move we made. It was beautiful. I kept saying that I felt like this season of life that I expected to be hard, felt like I was floating through it all. God was literally carrying us through it. We waited, we prayed, we trusted, and our God did not fail. I remember praying over and over that summer that even if this transfer did not work, that God remind us that he was still faithful and he was still there for us. The outcome of this did not define how God felt about us. Something about that brought me so much peace and it’s what truly helped me get through those tough moments where the enemy liked to plant doubt and fear in my mind.
This makes me emotional because this is my testimony. We waited, we trusted God, and our God did not fail. We have our perfect baby boy here. How cool is God???? Our answered prayer is here and all the sudden, i can understand why God needed us to wait. I can see it now and I am so thankful that the Lord took that time to prep us individually and as a couple.
I also can’t believe that one year ago from this week we transferred our perfect baby boy. You can say that I am in my feelings this week because our baby boy that we transferred a year ago is turning four months this week. I can’t believe I am a mom. I can’t believe IVF worked for us. Thank you Jesus.
Until next time, xoxo